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Tears

It’s been awhile since our last GOODBYE~

I had always thought that the phrase- “Time heals all wounds”- exist… ~

Now that I realize the reason ~ The reason I can’t breathe right, the reason I can’t sleep at night, the reason I feel:-

Empty- for you had taken my entire reason to smile with you…

Pain- to end a day without the slightest chance of knowing how you were…

Lonely- like no one else mattered to me…

Anticipation- awaiting for the moment my phone would ring with your name appearing on the screen…

Hope- to see you smile again, to hear your carefree chatter…

~time wasn’t healing me…

But to my surprise “Time Intensified the pain of MY wound”

What is that _ sliding down my face?

Why does it soak my clothes?

What the fcuk is it?

Why does it hurt so much?

Why does it have to show when I intend to be strong?

TEARS~ they are called~ hardwired to my emotions

Cry~

No matter it is a cry of pain or a cry of joy…

That THING that appears is known as tears…

I miss you truly… fiercely…

I wish you were here…!!!

Esme

Work7 (writtenJune2010)

My Life as the sky…

The stars and the moon are hiding … because..

Tonight the sky is crying…

The rain~ like tears …

Slowly creeping down my cheeks…

Like a river flowing continuously…

Into the deep mysterious sea

Which seemed tender…? I think not… for…~

When you think that everything seemed calmer

As  the sun finally shines Bright and high..

Taking my soul high into the endless sky~

Problems shall descend… like heavy clouds

Thus collisions shall arise ~

Arguments like thunder…

Heartbreaks like lightning…

The sky shall cry again…

My life… like the sky…Shall be~

Ever changing, Though limitless with no boundaries

But it shall never be without worries…

Esme

Lady Antebellum - Need You Now

The True Character of the Rottweiler

The CLEAREST explanation I could ever give you baby~!

Truth about everything is I really loved you before,
But then things changed~
I got to let go,
I already told myself I wouldn't love you the same way I did before~
then came yesterday..
your one of a kind friends messed everything up~
(I swear I wouldn't let this go easy)
I told them what I felt; was the truth yesterday..
you read it.. you got hurt~
you told me not to mess with your heart.. if I didn't meant what I said,
problem was.. I really want to tell you I meant every single word I said to you before~
what you don't know is you are the closes friend I treated..
not the way it was not when I saw you as a lover~
when I said I didn't think I want to be with you any more, you got hurt
when I said what I said was just for fun .. I was referring to the PMs and statuses .. you couldn't take it
then after that I told you to look back to the poem I wrote to prove what I said was true~
you misunderstood again, you thought I was still in love with you..
sorry to say NO I am NO LONGER in LOVE with you..
you are more than that, you are a life long friend I thought I could keep~
Thanks to your friends, This isn't possible any more
I read through your message more than a million times over the hours
wondering what you really wanted.. It left me Blank with confusion
I hope God could make things right~ coz I don't know what to do any more..
After trying my BEST for these few months, I finally wanna say I feel like giving up~
Only friends? I don't know if I could live with this compromise when it wasn't me who did wrong this time..
LIFE is sooooo freaking unfair to me..~!!!

This girl from my dreams ~ ^^

Love is a magical thing,

It’s sweet yet bitter,

Which paints me a picture~

In my dreams I often see,

Two people together so lovingly~

Two hands hugging gently;

As gentle as the touch of the Sun’s warmth,

Fingers interlaced perfectly,

Held each other in the utmost glee;

Tender as caressing feathers,

And one of these people was me…

I feel the happiness in the air;

Tinged with its sweetness that that seems just fair~

Because everything is sweet when she is there ^^

The missing piece in my heart,

She filled with a simple “Till death do us part”

Our hearts found each other,

Just like the missing puzzles fitting in together;

This girl from my dreams

She’s the most beautiful creature I have ever seen

She is sexy, temperamental, elegant, perfect, hot, appealing,

Naturally intelligent and expressive…

She’s my angel~

Sent down from heaven for me to love,

And love her I shall;

Every time we shall ever meet again in my dreams ^^

Esme23september2010

When I know I can’t have you

You have always been the first thought that comes into mind,

Every morning when I lie awake on my bed;

You are my very last thought before I fall asleep,

Every night at the edge of oblivion;

Gazing upon my imaginary constellations…

On my bed, I lay…

I could see, the things that would have been;

The many ways I could love you~

You got me so deep baby…

How could I ever forget you?

It hurts so much,

To know that I can’t have you…

*Every time I close my eyes,

  There you are;

  Right in front of me,

  Standing right there;

  I’d try to hold you,

  But I couldn’t reach;

  I LOVE you baby,

  So much you couldn’t see…

No one that has ever touched my heart,

Could change me the way you did;

It altered me too much,

Now that you want to let it all go;

I know for sure, I can’t have you~

The heartaches and pain that I’ve concealed inside of me,

I know that if I said it out loud;

I’d risk losing you forever…

So~

*Chorus*

My heart… it’s tired

Aches even more when I think about you,

And the way you ignore me;

When you think I didn’t know,

I’m always trying to forget;

How hurt I am,

~Because I really really love you~

But it just wouldn’t disappear;

Because…

*Chorus*

I love you baby,

I only wish you could see >.<                                                     Done by: Esme 12 September 2010