The True Character of the Rottweiler

The CLEAREST explanation I could ever give you baby~!

Truth about everything is I really loved you before,
But then things changed~
I got to let go,
I already told myself I wouldn't love you the same way I did before~
then came yesterday..
your one of a kind friends messed everything up~
(I swear I wouldn't let this go easy)
I told them what I felt; was the truth yesterday..
you read it.. you got hurt~
you told me not to mess with your heart.. if I didn't meant what I said,
problem was.. I really want to tell you I meant every single word I said to you before~
what you don't know is you are the closes friend I treated..
not the way it was not when I saw you as a lover~
when I said I didn't think I want to be with you any more, you got hurt
when I said what I said was just for fun .. I was referring to the PMs and statuses .. you couldn't take it
then after that I told you to look back to the poem I wrote to prove what I said was true~
you misunderstood again, you thought I was still in love with you..
sorry to say NO I am NO LONGER in LOVE with you..
you are more than that, you are a life long friend I thought I could keep~
Thanks to your friends, This isn't possible any more
I read through your message more than a million times over the hours
wondering what you really wanted.. It left me Blank with confusion
I hope God could make things right~ coz I don't know what to do any more..
After trying my BEST for these few months, I finally wanna say I feel like giving up~
Only friends? I don't know if I could live with this compromise when it wasn't me who did wrong this time..
LIFE is sooooo freaking unfair to me..~!!!

This girl from my dreams ~ ^^

Love is a magical thing,

It’s sweet yet bitter,

Which paints me a picture~

In my dreams I often see,

Two people together so lovingly~

Two hands hugging gently;

As gentle as the touch of the Sun’s warmth,

Fingers interlaced perfectly,

Held each other in the utmost glee;

Tender as caressing feathers,

And one of these people was me…

I feel the happiness in the air;

Tinged with its sweetness that that seems just fair~

Because everything is sweet when she is there ^^

The missing piece in my heart,

She filled with a simple “Till death do us part”

Our hearts found each other,

Just like the missing puzzles fitting in together;

This girl from my dreams

She’s the most beautiful creature I have ever seen

She is sexy, temperamental, elegant, perfect, hot, appealing,

Naturally intelligent and expressive…

She’s my angel~

Sent down from heaven for me to love,

And love her I shall;

Every time we shall ever meet again in my dreams ^^

Esme23september2010

When I know I can’t have you

You have always been the first thought that comes into mind,

Every morning when I lie awake on my bed;

You are my very last thought before I fall asleep,

Every night at the edge of oblivion;

Gazing upon my imaginary constellations…

On my bed, I lay…

I could see, the things that would have been;

The many ways I could love you~

You got me so deep baby…

How could I ever forget you?

It hurts so much,

To know that I can’t have you…

*Every time I close my eyes,

  There you are;

  Right in front of me,

  Standing right there;

  I’d try to hold you,

  But I couldn’t reach;

  I LOVE you baby,

  So much you couldn’t see…

No one that has ever touched my heart,

Could change me the way you did;

It altered me too much,

Now that you want to let it all go;

I know for sure, I can’t have you~

The heartaches and pain that I’ve concealed inside of me,

I know that if I said it out loud;

I’d risk losing you forever…

So~

*Chorus*

My heart… it’s tired

Aches even more when I think about you,

And the way you ignore me;

When you think I didn’t know,

I’m always trying to forget;

How hurt I am,

~Because I really really love you~

But it just wouldn’t disappear;

Because…

*Chorus*

I love you baby,

I only wish you could see >.<                                                     Done by: Esme 12 September 2010

13~ my favourite number XP

 This is supposed to be my best or at least my favorite piece of writing~

It’s my 13^th work… officially anyways~

But there is totally nothing cheerful about it,

Even if I made it coincidental to the date or whatever~

The number 13 has always been a part of who I am,

I was born, on the 13^th, on the eves of two unforgettable celebrations

Evil, mysterious, somewhat devilish~

But it’s my lucky number

I truly adore this number due to the fact that no one likes it~

Mostly people shun away from having to pick this number

Like the 13^th floor or car plate number 13 or even Friday the 13^th

^{Most people would pick 8… coz they think it would bring them prosperity~}

^{Well kiss my ass … if it were THAT easy…!}

^{The gardeners wouldn’t be cutting your grass or pruning your trees}

^{They’d be shopping in Habib~}

 ^{Today is Friday the 13th and I simply feel ecstatic~}

^{May everyone I love be as happy as I am today}

^{(p.s. Don’t give a fcuk about running into a black cat or broken mirror… that’s bullshit~!)}